AGAIN~

我以为我可以用忙来麻醉自己，实事是不能。它只能帮我忘记找你忘记回你但还是不能忘记我们的全部。我以为把自己弄得越累我就不会失眠，原来这样只会帮我想起你的更多。你的影子每天都一定会出现，不管我在哪。我最不喜欢的就是明明你是在意我不找你，但是你就是要假装没事。我不找你你还是会找我看看我会不会回你。可是当我找你时你竟然讲＂我要找你就会找你＂。这句话真的很伤我！所以我决定我逼自己不找你不回你。我也会用回同样的那句话跟你讲＂我要找你就会找＂。我在很尽量的过好我的生活，过的比你好比你开心。如果你真的关心我在意我，我不介意你找我。可是如果不是就别来给我希望。我原本是你女友却被你弄到我像你外面的女人！像第三者！像个贱人！

Thought making myself busy will make me forget about you. Yes it really work but only that moment of busy, after that everything will be same. I when hill climbing again, and the scenery the sunrise make my mind clear and comfy. But after that my mood go down down again. The more tired I am the more I think of you. Like you never leave, keep on turning turning in my mind. The most I dislike is, you care about me and u care I don't even find u but u have to pretend u are not. I don't find you, you will find me. When I decide not to bother about your life, you find me. When I need you, when I need a good chat with you, the only thing you will say is "I will find you when I want too" okay that sentence really hurt you never know! That's why I just have to tell you whatever you told me before so you can feel how I really feel. I trying to get over my life really. If you really care about me please atleast do something show me that you really care about me and care about us. Know what? I'm the girlfriend in the beginning but now you make me feel like I'm the outside girl! The third party the bitch then mean one!!